Somedays running sucks

Exercise update: I have been fortunate in that I haven't had many exercise days that were just difficult. Maybe I don't work hard enough or maybe I'm in better shape, but for the most part my workouts have felt ok.

But not today.... Today I was on deck to run 30 minutes and even though I completed the run, I can't say I enjoyed any of it. I just felt heavy legged and slow and fatigued. Maybe the third day in a row after a pretty active weekend was too much or maybe it was just one of those days, but what a slog. I saw someone post somewhere on the Internet that the toughest days training were the most beneficial... they thought. I hope that's true, but it sure don't feel that way right now.

Nutrition update: If you've been following, you know I've felt like my diet has slipped in the last couple weeks. My old pattern of greater amounts of exercise equaling less dietary discipline has cropped up. Last week I didn't lose any weight, and I don't know if I will tomorrow. You might remember a few weeks ago, I talked about the dilemma I have with training for events vs. focusing on weight loss. The short version is I struggle to do both at once. If I don't show some progress tomorrow, I need to go more weight focused for a while because I have a long way to go in that area and I'm only content being a slow, fat triathlete for another month or so.

FYI...here's what I've eaten so far today . It looks pretty good, but remember I'm always at my best on Mondays because Tuesday is the day of reckoning. When combined with the 500+ calories I earned through exercise today, I have 600-700 calories to get me to bedtime.

Breakfast
1 banana 120 calories
Bolthouse Farms ~ Smoothie ~ Green Goodness 4 fl oz 70 calories
Breakfast Burrito ~ Sausage 1 order 300 (I rationalized that I needed protein)

Lunch
Turkey Club 1 serving 590
Pepsi ~ Wild Cherry 8 fl oz 110
Lay´s ~ Potato Chips ~ Baked! ~ Sour Cream & Onion12 crisps 120

Afternoon snack
Panera ~ Bagel ~ Blueberry
1 bagel 330

I only see two big boo-boos here. No one needs Cherry Pepsi and breakfast burritos are debatable at best.

Random Musings: I'll be anxious to see what tomorrow's weigh-in tells me. It should help me focus for July.

On a completely separate note, today was a tough day. A friend at work lost his 23 year old daughter to a drunk driver over the weekend. I have no words to describe how awful that must be for him and I feel really bad. To compound my feelings (although I'm not the key figure here), I learned that the drunk driver was an alumnus of my little Alternative High School program, albeit before my arrival.

That was added to having to talk with a student about a potential sexual harassment issue today and when I did some research on the person she accused of the harassment, his rap sheet was two screens long (and his in my building every day). I have to admit, I had a bad couple hours where I just wanted to meet a different group of people than the ones I generally serve at work. It's not fair to group them all together, because some are doing great, but it is exhausting to know so many people who are not doing well or aren't even nice people.
It's weird to be at a point in life where you can look at the website to see who's in the county jail and not only know several of them, but have your brain go "oh I like that guy' when you see the name of someone accused of meth dealing or battery etc.

I must admit that I felt like escaping to a different strata in the caste system for a few hours today. Fortunately I have pretty good amnesia and generally some optimism, so I forget the bad stuff and believe we can help, even when the evidence isn't as plentiful as I wish.

If you are a spiritual person, think a good thought for my colleague Jeff, no father should have to outlive his daughter.