Well, I am finally convinced that my behavior with health is truly that of an addict. I so easily spiral into bad choices,that it only makes sense in the context of addiction. I'm not sure why I'm addicted to (maybe stupidity or slow suicide by food), but let me explain.
Regular readers will know that on Tuesday, I had what can only be described as a relapse. I went out with friends and indulged in some beers and greasy bar food. Probably not a big deal as a stand alone day, but let's look at the chain of events since.
Tuesday: Bar time with friends. Was less than moderate and took the whole day off from diet and exercise
Wednesday: Didn't feel great from day before and ditched workout for long walk instead. Diet was ok, but overcompensated and ended up with nasty heartburn, which meant I didn't sleep well.
Thursday: Now the momentum has shifted and a very long day at work leads to "skip the Y and go home to work out, wait I am home and I'm late and tired..." That in turn leads to no workout and why don't we order pizza. And of course one could eat just some pizza but instead let's have 6 slices.
I don't know what else to call that but a 3 day bender. I am engaging in addict behavior...
So, like any recovering addict, I just tried to start over today. I have not tracked my food online today, but I know I've eaten more reasonably. And even though I have a very long day again, with the GED graduation this evening on top of it, I got my butt to the Y and put in 42 minutes on the elliptical. And thus starts recovery one day at a time.
Tomorrow, I need to get back to food tracking and keep the exercise momentum going.
So, what's the lesson. I guess the same way AA tells people to simply decide they won't drink TODAY, I need to commit daily to my health. I am stunned at how fast one bad day turns into three...
Today I will live in a way that reflects my wellness goals. Tomorrow I'll decide again.
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