Exercise update: Today was a win against myself. My training calendar says I am on the hook for a 40 minute easy run (plus some strength training). I had planned on that all day, but as always I let my day drag on at work. I then extended it by popping in on my boss to lament some of the days foibles and before I knew it I was headed home at least 45 minutes later than I had planned...
So, when this usually happens I just let working out go and that's where my head went today. I didn't go to the Y and in my head I started to rationalize that I had rest days in the schedule so I would just move one to today and double up later. Three days into the plan and I was undermining it already! But then I found some fortitude. I went home, ate a snack and simply ran later in the evening. It sounds simple, but overcoming my own habits and lethargy is a big deal for me. I felt like I acted committed tonight. I ran just under the 40 minutes allotted and then took the dog for a 25 minute cool down.
I can't get too cocky, I mapped the run and I still run at a turtle's pace and I didn't do the strength training. Lifting weights always seems easier at the Y. I'm not sure why I always prefer cardio to weights, but I know a 40 year old needs to lift if he hopes for physical transformation....and I do.
Nutrition update: For some odd reason, I haven't tracked my food at myfooddiary the last couple days. I'm not real sure why, but I need to get back to it tomorrow. I've been eating ok, but I can feel myself grabbing a handful of this or a handful of that when I don't have to report to the computer god.
So far, I'm ok (I think), but I'm not ready to go on my own. Maybe if I can track for a solid two weeks, I'll try a week on my own. But I'm not there yet.
My two June projects, adding a salad and eliminating soda have been spectacular failures thus far. I had my first salad today and I'm still drinking soda daily. Perhaps putting it out on the blog again will inspire me to make change. I'm not Anthony Weiner (although I have enough skeletons to never run for office), but I don't want to lie to myself about food either.
Random Musings: A warning to any reader who may want to be a boss someday. Today was a perfect example of why it just isn't worth it sometimes. I have been in the process of hiring a new faculty member. It's the most important thing I can do and I think we are going to hire a great one. But, just when I confirmed with all the references that our committee's choice was just as good as we thought they were, I remembered I was going to have to tell 5 other people they weren't getting hired.
One of those people has worked for me part-time for several years and I knew they would be very disappointed and perhaps angry. So, 10 seconds after the elation of finding someone I think will be great, I got to start with the anxiety of delivering bad news to someone I like. I wish I could say I contacted them and it was all smooth and cool, but not in this reality. When I called this person (because you really should call or see them in person, an email seems cruel), they were even more upset than I suspected.
Often your strength is also your weakness and in my case, it's the fact that I want everyone to feel ok all of the time. And when you destroy someone's dream, you just can't make that ok for them. I'm getting better at simply ending the conversation and taking whatever angry words I get (I'm more the target than the cause, although this time I'm both), but I'll never like it. It just means that I can't enjoy a day that had lot of good to it. So beware any aspiring administrators.
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