Vacation is coming to an end

Tomorrow is the last day off of my little mini-spring vacation. As I transition back to normal working life, I think I'll transition the format of my blog a bit too, at least for today.
I've been intermingling my inner musings with diet and fitness reports and it seems presumptuous that everyone (all 6 of you:)) are interested in both. So I'll try separating them out a bit and if anyone objects let me know

4/27 exercise report: Today was a good day. Anne and I went to a 9:00 a.m. spinning class and I really challenged myself for the whole 45 minutes. Spinning is a great workout. I also had my standard 30 minute dog walk later in the day. I continue to debate internally about trying for a June triathlon, but while I vacillate, I'll keep my butt moving. That was good advice from my baby brother:)

4/27 diet report: Started strong today, did my spin class on a banana and lots of water. probably could have eaten more prior, but I rolled out of bed a little late due to some sleepless kids. Had a homemade scone when we returned from class and hit the Diet Pepsi for the day (still struggling with caffeine addiction).
Lunch was out with Anne as we had a kid free day. We went for Mexican at Tequila and I did just ok. Didn't pig out but could have been more careful. Rest of the day was solid. Didn't track food in the diary again today, so I'm threatening myself again that if I don't tomorrow, I have to post an even less flattering picture. I'm trying to be laser focused between now and next weigh-in, so I can see 2 pounds come off, which would be a great motivator.

Random Musings: I don't know if it's the blog or my own psychotic nature or the new focus on training, but I've been more introspective lately. My latest (and chronic) area of obsession has been returning to school this summer to resume progress towards my doctorate. It seems every time I get close to starting it again, I get very anxious about why I'm actually doing that. Sometimes, I feel like I'm on the fast track to jobs I don't really want, if that makes any sense. It feels a a little whiny to complain about success at work, but work takes up so much of my mental energy right now; the thought of taking on more is pretty scary. Where would my health go then? The last promotion sent me into a two year fitness tailspin...

So the latest option that seems to have jumped up in front of me is a chance to get a second masters in mental health counseling. This would enable me to be a counselor, which has been an off and on goal for a long time and would also allow me to teach psychology eventually. Of course, I could also keep doing what I'm doing (until the doctorate becomes a requirement), so I guess the point is, it would give me options. I want to carve out life space to have a few more interests than work. I'm 40 and if I don't do these things now, will I ever? There's still time to learn that guitar and be a rock star:)

Actually this all looks wackier when I type it:) Maybe it's just my anxiety come back to roost.
Sometimes it just feels like I could have more impact (meaning do some good) on a different life path than the one I'm currently on. Trying to sort out what I really want to do and what I like to do versus the joy of meeting and exceeding others expectations will be an on-going project. In the meantime, I'll just keep moving.

Off to the Twin Cities tomorrow to see the King Tut exhibit, so it's a good rest day for exercise and challenge to my diet discipline on the road.